I remember when my dad used to take me fishing.
Waking up at nearly four, before sunrise - driving to the beach,
my yellow fishing-pole, my dad's proud smiling face
the blurs of people, the cold darkness of the sky,
and the semi-sweet smell of success.
My little palms too tiny to grasp how much my dad loved me.
Still too tiny.

Empedocles

I wanted to muster up every curse word I knew;
starting from how much of an "a-word" you were to me,
how much you "f-word" me over.
I wanted to unleash a whole eporiom of profanity.
Yet, I held back - you are not worth it.
I am in silence.








WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU STILL TRYING TO TALK TO ME?

Empedocles

Click. Click.

There's no place like home.

I opened my eyes to a "home,"

But it wasn't mine.

How could you do this to me dad...

Apollodorus

I feel like Van Gogh,

I feel like Bach,

Without art,

Without music.

Apollodorus

What if my actions cannot be explained through words;
Will you instigate me then?
Because I'm fucking tired of your drama,
you take everything too damn seriously.
Alas, I have yet to burn that bridge.

Empedocles

I'll never be able to reach you.

You simply expect too much of me.

Fuck you expectations.

Fuck you.


If I didn't have a plan, I guess you couldn't say things didn't go according to plan.

Apollodorus

Let's float away.
Because running takes up too much calories,
and I fucking love eating.

Empedocles

I am not myself,

I am myself.

I am not; therefore I am.

Apollodorus

I'm sitting here
and my peace is asundered by the lonliness once again -
but then I look outside - the city lights sparkling like your eyes once did;
and I can only smirk because you are gone, gone, gone.
Not exactly what I expected.

Empedocles

I love you because you are spontaneous.

I love you because you always keep me guessing as to what's next.

I love you because you know your purpose; your shape defined.

I love you because at times you are sweet, but cannot be completely predictable enough to know when you will be sour.

I love you because you are willing to change your appearance just to keep me guessing.

I love you because you are

A jawbreaker.


I have come to love the inanimate because the animate cannot come to love me.

Apollodorus

I'm realizing that I want nothing to do with you -

Stop fucking trying.

Empedocles

A bystander to life.

Waiting. Watching. Wanting.

Tomorrow things will be in color.

Apollodorus

I kissed her.
Yes, a girl, dammit.
And now I know that I am officially straight.

Empedocles

He cares! He really fucking cares!

In the midst of the anger,

I could not help but smile

and feel that little trickle make it's way slowly down my cheek.

Apollodorus

I deserve more than you mediocre, incompetent hopefuls.

Empedocles

Accept the sorrows.

Accept the joys.

Accept life.

Apollodorus

I feel the distance widening between us.

I couldn't be more liberated.

Empedocles

The bass of this song seems to just thump out all my insecurities and imperfections,

Creating a rather facade of perfection in this "life."

It makes all the sense in the world to me and I don't care if you think otherwise

Apollodorus

Something took a hold of me tonight, and those lips held me as a temporary addiction.


I fell out of it the minute I walked into the door - here I am lying to myself once more.

Empedocles

Pure emotion at my disposal.

My fingers the means of escape.

Feet firmly planted, eyes shut, I am the composer.

Melodic gibberish.

Thanks for sharing this with me.

I never thought you'd be here, not in a million damn years;

I guess it's just life being life.

Apollodorus

And I am never going to two-time again.

Empedocles

Purposely searching for a purpose.

Apollodorus

The rush - I love the rush.

I feel more like myself than ever.

Empedocles

Might as well rid my mind of these thoughts of resignation.

I mean, it's not like I don't enjoy these weekly affairs.


Embrace the moment and every thought along with it,

And then detach. Thanks Morrie.

Coincidence to have seen you in an unexpected moment,
a quick glance was all I needed to confirm that
my childhood had been a waste - wishing for you with every damn star in the night sky.

Empedocles

If love provokes the lover,

And thoughts provokes the thinker,

What provokes the provoker?


If it needs loving, love it.

If it needs caring, care for it.

If it needs fucking, FUCK it.


Oh, don't mind me I'm just living my life. Care to join me?

I woke up with a smile, today.

Happiness brings smiles. Smiles bring hapiness. Smile for me? I promise I'll smile back.

Apollodorus

I'll rip a piece for you, too.

Everyone has one - just look.

And here is what I'm left with in the end.

Empedocles

I could have made myself feel better at any time,

But I wanted her to do it for me.

My heart emanates symphonies.

I am surrounded by deaf people.

Apollodorus

Impulsively, I said it.

I don't know whether I want it
just for the fact of having something -

Maybe there's more.

Probably not.

Empedocles

Love.

Hobby or addiction?

Apollodorus

The best side of me is my impulsiveness.

The worst side of me is my impulsiveness.

Empedocles

Chasing the faint glimmer of what used to be.

Fuck.

I lost it.

Apollodorus

I kissed him.
I kissed him.


What a lie that I am living.


Empedocles